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I sought for a Love…

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My sorrowful attempts at meaningful prayers and study of the Bible at times can produce only outbursts of tears. Sometimes, sense of duty overtakes a love starved heart and reason gets forgotten. Just what purpose is in the seeking, I have to remind myself. Where there may be a sincere intention for intimacy, when the motivation is self seeking, the result becomes this unnatural striving to simply put-in-time with our Heavenly Father, God in hopes of finding favor for a sought after aim. From this position, we can mistakenly grieve the Holy Spirit. Because, being a Christian is never a chore, or set of rules, or some duty that we are trying to accomplish in order to please our Lord. No, Christianity is a courtship, and it is One that is founded on Jesus Christ and based in pure Love. An unconditional and overwhelming love that draws us into righteousness, peace, and joy. It holds Truth that compels us to seek more, simply to know and understand this outrageous love-Truth that our Lord and Savior is constantly pouring out to us. We know we don’t deserve it and we know we can’t earn it. It seems so unbelievable to receive it, and yet we have received. Undeniable and irrevocable, we cling to this tangible love that has made its home within our spirit. The changes are permanent and there’s no going back to what once was…

This is what I must remember. When we open the Bible or quiet our soul in prayer, it is from a place of wanting to see, experience, and understand this gracious love.
When we are having trouble with desire and motivation, this is a time to simply rest in places of praise and thanksgiving for all the many wonderful things that have taken place… If we are blocked in our heart and soul from having a desire or ability to recognize the many blessings in our day to day, we must ask for help from Holy Spirit to quicken and enlighten our spirit. The place of revelation and the drawing by our Father into the Words of Christ, whether in prayer or scripture, can only be found from a position of humility and sincere repentance. We must confess our weakness, in order to be made strong. We must ask forgiveness and forgive in order to be forgiven. And we must believe and trust that God is real and hears our requests and will help our unbelief and struggle.
The struggle of prayer and study is very common and understood by God. He never condemns or gives guilt. He always is waiting and loving and patient. We can be satisfied to allow stretches of silence in the relationship as all the while resting in a place of acceptance from our Holy Father, Son and Spirit. From this place of acceptance and love, a natural curiosity and prompting will begin to rise as it calls our heart, soul, and mind to seek out this extravagant love story that is Christianity.
Begin from this place. Grasp this perspective and study and prayer will come naturally. It may be small and scattered at first, but will surely blossom when it is sought after from this place of pure Love. 💗

Blessings

When healing comes…

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An insatiable sickness was demanding an accounting of my faith; my delays had only brought me to death’s door. Now, of necessity, I forced an answer to the critical question echoing throughout my life. “Was Jesus Christ the son of God come to save humanity?” Out loud, with tear-filled eyes, I whispered the words, “Yes, I believe.”
True sincerity would require a wholly committed embrace of His deity; belief in His written Word would be my proof…

I now know that it was not my own faith, but His measure given to me by Grace, that caused me to believe in the son of God and His sacrifice. Finally translated from darkness, a broken ego and humble heart began to search the scriptures. It was by the teaching of His Holy Spirit that my spirit began to be opened to His supernatural power which had always been drawing me … I learned to chase after His promises.

With time, through faith-filled seeking and a habit of meditation and praise I had developed in my prayer closet, I became familiar with the transforming presence of a God who loves us with an everlasting and supernatural love. Through sincere surrender in a safe environment wholly focused on Jesus, my spirit awoke, becoming aware of His touch; so weighty and precious is His tangible presence. Such encounters opened up the way for sovereign guidance that lead me toward like-minded believers. Within the fellowship of spirit-filled believers is where I learned of God’s faithfulness. I learned that Jesus Christ will always meets us at an open door of praise and worship. He meets us and then invites us gently into an overflowing charismatic experience. He longs to make Himself known. As with any desirable relationship, one becomes drawn to the meeting place. Its journey and resulted surroundings become etched into the subconscious allowing for the next interaction to become more easily acquired. I am able to arrive at this secret place almost immediately now. I’m sensitive to its call, I recognize the atmosphere, the sense when the veil has been lifted. I know now that the door to this glorious realm can be accessed from any place or moment …. My experience through my private encounters with the Holy Spirit opens me to receiving ever increasing measures of the Father’s love. He fills me up and pours out His purposes for my life. Through complete surrender in unabashed worship, I have found an experiential ministry from my Savior Jesus Christ who grants total healing. It is in this way as I stay in constant pursuit, determined to keep Him near, that I am sustained.

This type of walk with my Lord and King causes me to easily recognize His still small voice within. I’m shown Christ; in people and places, in conversation and song. Even within a glance, He is effortlessly known. It is by this familiarity and constant practice that whenever Holy Spirit has retreated into silence, this becomes immediately apparent. I feel His absence and my focus and resolve weakens; whether in dark circumstances or simply small moments of rejection, I fail to show love and I feel His grieving. My heart aches and sheds tears too easily these days when my immediate responses lack true unconditional love. Yet, no matter my failure in these circumstances, His mercy remains. His power unmatched; His Love is released and mercy triumphs. We need only stay filled by His love for forgiveness to reign. I’ve learned that His Word does not return void and His will is always done at the mention of His name.

His name is Jesus. He is Christ, my Lord; my all-powerful Savior.  All I purpose to know is my God. All I wish to seek is His presence. Ten thousand prayers and a lifetime’s pursuit has revealed a portal into His throne room of Grace where I’m readily ushered in, where my ability to know Him intimately intensifies…

It’s been 22 years now since I found my my healing through worship. My gratitude and love toward Him is unending and ever-increasing. The memory of His warm healing wind has not faded. I long to step into the rushing waves of His glorious kisses, again and again. My sustained health continually reminds me of just how real and living is our Savior. He cares for us with an unconditional, immeasurable, undying Love. ❤ ~.~

Believe for your Breakthrough ♥

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    In positioning ourselves to receive a breakthrough from the Lord, we must not be double-minded. Do not listen to the voice of the enemy that seeks to plant lies that will distract and detour one from receiving. Be ever-mindful of your thoughts and words, let them only come from the throne room of Heaven and pass through your spirit. God watches over His Word to perform it; know His Word and speak it! Out of your heart, your mouth will speak. Therefore be filled with His Word that it may pour out of you…

    A silent prayer is subject to distracting thoughts, so we must speak OUT LOUD that it would activate Faith; that it would rule over doubt. Be consistent, be focused, be patient, be single-minded, determined to walk through to the other side with God.

    Every breakthrough is a direct result of seeds planted given in Faith and the belief that there is a return for our faithfulness in Christ. Be sure to give a significant seed, the kind that cost you… seeds of love, trust, hope, kindness, gentleness, compassion, understanding, and charity…

    Once we truly have done this we can rest in the assurance that God’s Word will not return void. Study it, meditate on it until it becomes alive in you. Do not neglect it. Now this produces genuine and powerful Faith —Now, our foundation is solidly set on Jesus— He is the author and finisher of our Faith and we will not be denied. ~.~

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    realist&idealist: “When I get honest, I admit I am a bundle of paradoxes. I believe and…

    realistandidealist:

    “When I get honest, I admit I am a bundle of paradoxes. I believe and I doubt, I hope and get discouraged, I love and I hate, I feel bad about feeling good, I feel guilty about not feeling guilty. I am trusting and suspicious. I am honest and I still play games. To live by grace means to…

    This is me, a living, breathing paradox. ~.~

    realist&idealist: “When I get honest, I admit I am a bundle of paradoxes. I believe and…

    His Love ♥

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    How do I? How can I? I need to know…

    All of my life, I’ve searched for You, Lord. My heart’s desire has been to know You. My constant striving to please You, always hoping that my ‘doing’ might cause You to take notice. I supposed that You might move on my behalf; that you would possibly extend your hand of favor… –and favor has come, blessings and favor and constant provision. But, now I see that it was not because of my efforts, but because of Your Love. It has never come because of my selfish endeavors. But, when circumstance and struggle brought me to complete surrender, my selfishness ended and Your Mercy overflowed…
 It was not for Your sake that spiritual laws have been set. I’ve finally learned that it was for my own sake that there was a longing placed inside of me to know You — and my eyes were set upon a book — a book that is summed up in one word — Love. You are Love. It is only inside of complete and unconditional Love that we find our answers. And, the benefit of our search is not for You, but for each of us. In and through Love, we find pure Praise and true Worship flows. It is only out of the purest Praise and Worship that we begin to see Truth.

    Forever mankind has grappled with the question, “Why?” Now I see that all of life’s answers can be found, not in the question “why?” but, in the search for “how?” 
How can I see You? 
How can I find You? 
How do I seek You?
How can I know You?

    In this question, eternity begins to open up to us, and it becomes more real than anything in this temporary life… —-and our answers are hidden inside of our Worship. They come through our complete surrender. This is where our carnal mind quiets in the background and our natural state begins to transform; our perceptions begin to change and our spirit rises up to overtake and outperform the flesh—- Only then does the door into Your realm crack open. And, it pours out such a flood so magnificent we cannot help but to be overtaken by Your Love, Peace, Joy, Laughter, Praise, Healing, Wisdom, and Glory!!! …and it is intoxicating … and I am addicted. I am overwhelmed and undone by Your electrifying touch, Your pure Presence. I am run through by Your profound Peace, and now I see You. I have found You in my Worship. I have learned how to seek and know You, and I hear Your voice in the song.

    ~.~