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Spirit thoughts beyond the Veil.

There I was; my body sprawled sideways across the floor, my cheek pressed into carpet fibers, my eyes hidden behind a blanket of hair covering one arm tossed across my head. My mind was drowning in musical bliss, the bass was forcefully reverberating within my body once again squeezing from my conscience all concerns of how this spectacle appeared. This was why I had come; in pursuit of this overwhelmingly welcomed and familiar event. My soul having been exhausted by its resistance, my body worn down from protest, I had forced surrender from vanity into sacrifices of praise. Now free from mental weights, my spirit soared with but one determination left… my worship began.

I’ve decided to live each breath in constant contemplation of this blessed event. I set my daily tasks, one leading to the next, each purposed toward a path designed to lead me to this end, this anticipated labor of a love that never leaves. My mind is in pursuit, a constant craving for His open door by which I long to enter in.
…Again, I’ve found this place. My thoughts have passed the threshold where reason is transformed to fit His grace. Within this place of sweet surrender, an absolute state of joy in true worship for my King, I peer through brunette strands and catch a glimpse of His feet resting by His throne. My spirit stays distant, my view shifts to a throng of angels towering and passionately demonstrating constant songs of adoration to my Heavenly Father.  Worthy is the Lord God Almighty. The floor now clears, a way is made, somehow I see that I am laying at His feet. “I want to know You, Lord.” My voice is a faint whisper, my natural mind still cognizant of strobes that stream through tousled hair reflecting gently on my face.  I’m still outstretched, innately poised in position guarded from all distractions. Such peace and joy now causing trembles fluttering in waves of warming currents washing free all stress and worry from my frame. They pour over all physical senses while awakening my spirit all the more…
So much clarity has been released from this repose. Detached from time, here come my sought for answers, here come all seven Spirits burning. Realities once present from this age begin to fade away to take their rightful place among the carnal facts of earthly truths no longer claiming priority.  My mind breaks free willingly receiving pleasant spirit-thoughts flooding from another realm that reach into emotions now creating their own language for my understanding.
Heaven has drawn back the veil and I can briefly grasp the mysteries.  Thoughts to come are strangely submissive to this place where body and soul have become muted. My spirit strengthens all the more intently focused on the voice I’ve come to Love. His voice speaks gently, kindly sounding repetitions waiting for my recognition. My spirit now increasing in its craving to break loose, arouses its control and leads out my voice with crying shouts that bellow forth for more of Him. One last shout from depths that burst forcefully aloud shedding tears filled with gratitude that raise me up. I’m on my knees in adoration of this wonder, that He would visit me so clearly amidst this noise! A wonderful noise too beautiful for words and I am humbled by His presence in awe and wonder of His touch. I feel it now, so powerful within my soul inside of places buried deep. I never knew I owned these places now springing up alive with healing power rushing through me. Their soothing ripples keeping me in quickened health. He keeps His place so close as I stay frozen. His breath quite near, I try to take it in through every pore that tingles as He blows across my fragile frame. I’m shaking now, I’ve caught my breath, it speeds unsteadily escaping into pants of glorious laughter as my mind falls into depths unstudied by this place I’m captured in. This type of racing heart has been unknown to me before this massive shattering of time that meets eternity, both now colliding from within my weakly flesh.
“Undo the veil, undo the veil, undo the veil.” He speaks in echoes. “I want to show you more of Me. I want to open up your eyes. I will reveal My will to you. Right now come dance a dance with Me. All things will be made clear.”
How can I not respond to this? I’m urged to grapple to my feet. How dare I cower back from God’s new call? His call to abandon all this pride that keeps me from the benefit. I stand in awesome wonderment that this could come so easily.  All that’s required is found in surrendering, and I have acquired all that I seek. I live to give to Him my All and He returns His favor.

  

Encouragement not of this World

God gives encouragement with every communication and prompts me to do the same for all of you. I live to stay in constant prayer for your protection, covering of peace, and divine health for the lives of you and your loved ones. God has told us that it is His Holy Spirit that ‘quickens’ (brings to life) our mortal bodies; we know that the Holy Spirit, Son, and Father have come to make their home within each one of us. So, for this reason, we hold to the Truth of the power that works inside of us; ever walking by Faith not by sight, holding to our profession of having been made whole in Christ Jesus. Because we are instructed by God’s word to keep His sayings before our eyes at all times, and since we know Jesus is the Word written as instructions in the Holy Bible, we daily search the scriptures for their life giving words that sustains us in divine health. His promises grow into ever increasing Faith; now bringing us into a deeper relationship with our Lord, where we begin to hear His voice within our own spirit guiding our steps each day. With this level of connection, one begins to hold a steady focus on Jesus Christ, the author and finisher of our Faith. We learn of His divine purpose and how He wants to accomplish His will in our lives here on this earth. So we yield to His voice, always listening for that prompting inside of our inner man. To be filled with God’s Holy Spirit in this way, we can no longer be tossed to and fro by the accusations of the enemy that would try to destroy us. We begin to recognize their tactics, taking hold of every thought, bringing them into obedience of Christ. The moment we resist evil, the devil must flee. We know, therefore we speak, commanding the enemy to go and taking hold of the power we have in the name of Jesus, our Savior. In this way, we will begin to see victory at every moment and with every turn; becoming stronger in our battle against the principalities and rulers of the darkness of this world.

Therefore, I encourage you to put on the whole armor of God spoken of in Ephesians 6, that you may stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of Truth and having put on the breastplate of Righteousness, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of Peace. In all circumstances taking up the shield of Faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and taking the helmet of Salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. I encourage you all the more to take your stand and see the victory that the Lord, Jesus, has provided for you. Walk in your divine health and be made whole!

Covenant Calls

“For me, church is a place to draw closer to God and His people; to come in out of the chaos of the world; a place where I can be refreshed… a fresh filling of His Love, of His Peace. Church is a place where you should sense the movement of TheHolySpirit flowing and be able to step into that river; where you know God’s working something right there in that exact moment. He’s met you there because He’s welcome there. That’s where I want to be- I want to be in a place where the Love of Christ is so tangible, it forces out all fear from my life and frees me to soar into the things of the Spirit. And, I need that again and again; because as I step back out into the world there’s no doubt I will be bombarded with cares and troubles of unnatural and unwavering attacks from the enemy. He’s seeking whom he may devour, and I am no exception. God has told us that the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty in Christ to the pulling down of strongholds; and there are indeed strongholds wanting to attach themselves at every bend in the road, with every turn of our lives. So six days seem too long for me to wait until I can step back into that river where I’m reminded of the power in the name of Jesus and the cleansing by the washing of His Word being spoken over me. I long for that gathering of like-minded believers willing to encourage one another, if only by their mere presence that strengthens my faith as iron sharpens iron. Our spirits identify with one another and the HolySpirit that lives inside us, and we are satisfied.

We are reminded:
Perfect Love casts out Fear! —
Be anxious for NOTHING! —
Step out on the Water!! —
It’s NOT about us, It’s about Jesus! —

“Wherever my feet wander or my eyes gaze, I’m searching for You, my God. I long to worship You. My heart yearns to know You, Lord. My soul aches to be with You. I will seek You with all my heart and open my mouth to praise you in the sanctuary!! 🙌🎶…. This, and even more, is what church is to me.” ~.~ 💕✨

Psalm37:4 “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.”
Lamentation 3:35 “God is good to those who crave Him”
Job 32:18 “For I am filled with words and the spirit within compels me”
Job 33:14 “For God does speak; now this way, now another, though man does not perceive it… -yet He speaks-“

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Let us believe what we have heard from the whispers in our spirit.

Redeeming Truth: It’s a gift from the everlasting Father that I’m certain cannot be acquired through human effort.  Yet, we must believe.  Let us believe what we have heard from the whispers in our spirit.  Let us have ears to hear; remembering that it is a spiritual ear that must be listening. For truth can only be heard when our hearts are humble and it is with a humble heart that we begin to see Truth. God has unveiled this in His Son, Jesus Christ –our example of living, breathing, inherent Truth. 

Know that it is God alone that does the drawing.  He draws and then does the revealing; granting repentance first, then giving Truth —because He is Truth, He gives of Himself.  To behold what we seek, we must be awakened, and this also is a gift given only after having sought it with all our heart. 

Understand that the ONLY struggle in this life is what scripture calls a “Fight of Faith” Faith to believe that God IS, that He is able, that He is willing –for all things hang upon His Love and He is Love — ♥ This we cannot deny, because we have been given the knowledge by the Holy Spirit’s promptings…If we believe, then He makes His home within our heart’s prayer closet, bringing life to our soul and giving new birth to our own spirit where He now sits with us to teach all things in God’s Holy Word.  He directs our hands to open to the very pages that have already answered our dilemma.  In His sovereignty, He provides peace for the circumstance, and we are nurtured by His Grace.  This, too, is His gift; He longs to give you His gifts.  They redeem the past, restore the present, and fulfill His future for your life.  Open yourself up to His voice and invite Him in… only then will you be renewed to a deeper understanding of His great Mercy and transcendent Truth… and with each encounter, Faith is strengthened for the battle.  This is also His gift.  

How I cherish His gifts – I’m captured by His overcoming Truth.  I live for our appointed meetings where His promptings draw me near, where I know that He is waiting to meet me full of gifts to bestow; for my comfort is His delight, His joy in me brings strength, and His promises are unfailing! ♥ ~.~  We believe, therefore we obtain —the Helper has been given!  Bless the Savior that arose and ascended on high for the direct purpose of sending us His Holy Spirit  –our Guide and Comfort– Blessings ~.~

When healing comes…

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An insatiable sickness was demanding an accounting of my faith; my delays had only led me to death’s door. Now, of necessity, I forced my answer to the critical question that had been echoing through my life. Was Jesus Christ the son of God come to save humanity? Out loud, with tear-filled eyes, I whispered the words, “Yes, I believe.”
Sincerity would require a wholly committed embrace of His deity; belief in His written Word would be the proof…

I now know that it was not my own faith, but His measure given to me by Grace, that caused me to believe in His sacrifice. For the first time, a broken ego and humble heart began to search the scriptures. It was by His Holy Spirit that my eyes were opened to His supernatural power that had always been at work within me … I began to chase after His promises…

In time, through faith-filled seeking with a habit of meditation and praise I had developed in my prayer closet, I became familiar with the transforming presence of God through holy and pure surrender. It was in this safe environment wholly focused on Jesus that my spirit awoke and I became aware of His touch; so weighty and precious is His tangible presence. This knowledge opened up the way for God’s guidance that then led me to like-minded believers that openned the door to a spirit-filled, charismatic church.  I entered this place, where God had directed, immediately recognizing the same glorious Presence I had experienced in my private encounters with the Holy Spirit. Here, I found Him in even greater measure, filling me up, communicating His love and purpose for my life through complete surrender in unabashed worship. In seeking after Jesus Christ, I found my total healing; in constant pursuit, I keep it.

This type of walk with my Lord and Savior causes me to recognize Christ; in people and places, in conversation and song.  He is now effortlessly felt, and whenever He retreats into the background whether in dark circumstances or simply those moments that fail to show love, I immediately sense the Holy Spirit within me grieving …nevertheless, His mercy pours out. His power unmatched; His Love is released. I’ve learned that His Word does not return void and His will is always done at the mention of His name.

His name is Jesus. He is Christ, my Lord; my all-powerful Savior.  All I purpose to know is my God. All I wish to seek is His presence. Ten thousand prayers and a lifetime’s pursuit has shown me the entrance to His throne room of Grace where I’m readily ushered in, where my desire to know Him intimately intensifies.

It has been 18 years now since my healing. My gratitude and love toward Him is unending, ever-increasing. The memory of His warm healing wind has not faded. I long to step into the rushing waves of His glory. My sustained health continually reminds me of just how real is our Savior. He cares for us with an unconditional, immeasurable, undying Love. ❤ ~.~

On my journey…

I can remember having conversations about God, contemplating what was real and what might only be imagination. I would grab hold of a willing participant and start to ramble on with opinions and experiences; delving deeper into the possibilities of another place and time when these speculations might be made known… There was always a peace that would fill me when I began to speak of spiritual things; a time of His return, of an eternity with my heavenly Father, of His son, and the Holy Spirit. Any aggravations of present immediately shrunk into some distant scene while pictures of my possible future came forth becoming my hearts only focus. Those conversations sparked my passion for God. They taught me of love and peace, and how to wait patiently for God’s will. I learned that His way is always better, and blessings always come; at times subtly hidden within a moment, while on other occasions, shockingly poured upon your day so there is no denying the One unleashing them.

Although, I still can’t know as I’m known, my journey continues to teach me. Through unions and separations, births and deaths, sickness and heartache, I’m learning. One beauty, too difficult to fully comprehend, came within a time in my life when all of these rushed full force over me in unison, crushing me into functioning with what I would describe as an outward farce masking over an inward depravity —I functioned for years in that state. It granted me a death sentence and left me with a disease-ridden body and then robbed me of my house and home (literally). I say beauty because what I learned through those experiences has given me the tools to now work out my salvation with awesome reverence and power! It taught me priceless truths that can never be taken away. Most importantly, it taught me that the spirit world far outweighs the physical. I learned how the Spirit of God does indeed quicken our mortal bodies; and with each infilling –in every moment yielded to Him, be it in prayer or praise, with meditation or worship, every sacrifice of time given to God as an offering– where His Holy Spirit is released to interact with my flesh– there comes a healing. In those moments relinquished to Jesus, His voice can be heard. In doing so, we are ever being changed by His instructions; for they speak of forgivenesses and peace-making. He recalls for you the areas that must be reconciled in order for stresses to be released. There must be confessions and apologies, trust and faith, and then more forgiveness. In this way the Holy Spirit flows freely and we abide continually in Christ’s quickening where divine healing flows.

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My healing came; again and again it comes. I have been made whole and I am kept whole, changed from glory to glory by my communion with my Father. What I have learned on this journey is more valuable than any material thing on this earth; more valuable than any amount of finances or possessions that can be heaped up. What I’ve learned has brought me a treasured and constant contentment that fills me as long as He fills me. It is a priceless contentment, and Our walk together has become profoundly intimate; so much so that He begins to show me myself beyond this life…
One can have their purpose opened up to them; a purpose that has it’s beginning here, but most definitely will play out into eternity. And so, I wait patiently (like a laborer waiting for his wages, always watching for the result of God in my circumstances) knowing that His daily purposes come -like waves rolling onto shore, they come, without fail, they come…

I hear the sound…

Spirit Break Out

How He does cause one to tremble at the mention of His name… It was at one point in life after many days and many hours on my knees, with frustration for the emptiness I felt, that while in my prayer closet I asked the Lord why it was that I should come again and again to this place in hopeful expectation of my time with Him, yet never receive an answer or even so much as a greatly needed reply. Why could I not sense Him and know that He was as real as my own flesh and why should I not hear His voice respond to me like a friend who comforts a friend?

“Doesn’t His Word say that I am His friend?” I mulled.

And suddenly a presence stepped into the room just beyond my closet doors.

And, instantly I heard my mind ask its question, “Can you accept Him if He appears before you now?”

I knew I need only step through the door to see Him. I found myself simultaneously reaching for the knob while stepping backwards instead. It was my choice, but how could I — somehow, I couldn’t. I felt in that moment He would surely step through causing me to catch a glimpse of His magnificence. He could indeed cause me to see, in one moment, in this instance, all that is hidden… I would see how true it was that He is always near, He stays as close as my words! I shut my eyes fiercely, turning rapidly to my knees. He was now standing where I knelt. With an inexplicable fear that caused me to tremble, I buried my face deep inside my arms clinging to the ground.

“No, No I cannot. I cannot lift my eyes to see! I am not worthy… I am so sorry.” I wept.

I clenched my chest in hand and thought my heart would stop. And through my panting sobs His steps withdrew… Retrieving my breath, once calm again, I understood how great and powerful is His glorious presence. Realizing just how fragile is the human heart within so weak a body, I was grateful to learn why it is we have been given the gift of prayer as the means by which we communicate with the Almighty. ~.~

Since that day, somehow, I am more aware of His presence. I know that it is always accessible. And, with each new experience, I learn of His demonstrative affections. I revel in experiencing His manifest beauty. It causes me to wonder, longing all the more to know Him more intimately. So that now I listen. I hear the arriving sound of His outward expressions and listen all the more intently for His still small voice. I hear His voice, He is always speaking.

Now as He comes with every visit even nearer still, each time it causes me to tremble. He floods my soul with rushing power from the Comforter and my shaking no longer ignites from fear, but from the awesome wonderment of the Glory of His touch. His river washes over me with wave after wave. It captivates my spirit and arrests my flesh. I am captured. A captive of His Love, He is more real to me than my life. ♥

 

I dream…

I dream...

…in His loving presence.

I dream of a place where time does not envelop and restrain our choices; repeatedly taking them from daily activities to nighttime tragedies only to return us once again to the morning’s obligations. I dream of a place free and unrestrained from this physical cage that holds me now to weak and aching flesh subject to this poorly aging structure. I long for a life that exists perfectly pure; secure, resting on a foundation that cannot be shaken. Where good prevails and love reigns, where purpose fills our activities, where peace rushes through guiding us toward our destiny…. Where we live inside every moment, moments that lend themselves to our volunteered thoughts launching the thinker into only those places we choose to experience.

I dream of this place. I look to its maker; I long to know the one that has placed this desire inside me. With every breath I breathe, every step I take, I inch myself closer. Every intention, no matter how small, eagerly reaches forcefully toward this place, this place that I dream of entering. I’ve felt it in my prayer… I’ve glimpsed it in my night watches… I’ve peered into its secrets in my worship… Its mysteries have become familiar in the dance.

There is no time stronger for hearing and sensing the presence of the Lord then when fasting from fleshly desires where our continual prayer becomes part of a continual worship of our heavenly Father. In fasting, there must be purposeful prayer with an intentional searching of God’s Word. For it must be an unending meditation of His holy scriptures kept before your every thought so that you are certain to hear Him speak. You will become as familiar with His voice as a longtime lover’s call. His Presence will be intimately known and He will sing to you as well, “Come forth, my beloved.”

We surrender to our future…

…and so it was that as the sun began to set, I entered into the sanctuary for the first time on a Friday evening’s service where I was pleasantly met by the undeniable presence of a Holy Spirit filled church. The atmosphere was saturated with undisturbed peace, and I learned to quiet my mind that day; my body followed, motionless, falling deeper and deeper into such stillness…I could finally hear the voice of God. I learned that prayer is a conversation. As I surrendered myself to worshipful prayer, my spirit began to strengthen. Now feeling it rise up within to lead me into deeper worship, still, I trusted my Father; I knew He would not allow me to be led astray. He would guide me; He would keep me. –His love led me to the threshold of a realm so freeing that it moved me to dance and sing and praise Him with ever increasing abandon, until I found myself before the very throne room of Heaven. I was surrounded by worshippers basking in His wonderful presence; His fellowship so real, meeting me in the song and opening a gateway into His wondrous answers.

I’ve found no quicker way to enter into this realm but by sincere and passionate worship where one lets loose of all that clutters the mind and weighs down the heart. We must thrust off every distraction along with every expectation. True and honest worship seeks only the Father’s will and we long for it with every fiber of our being with hands lifted up in praise and adoration. We enter into the Throne Room of the Almighty with all humility –no longer holding to physical or mental comforts but casting all aside and giving ourselves to abandon even human reasoning so that we may embrace spiritual realities. It is only then that our spirit will rise once again to overtake our flesh and lead our heart into an unknown song, guiding our feet to dance with the Holy Spirit’s prompting –opening up greater realms of glory and taking us into the tangible showers of our Lord where He speaks and reigns with a magnetic and electrical touch. We are filled to overflowing with shaking and heavenly intoxication. We are exposed to wisdom that can now be seen from love’s perspective and so we glimpse our inevitable future.

…and so we Pray

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There is nothing more important or quite so precious as prayer. All that we do and all that we strive to become depends upon the miraculous gift of prayer. Even our worship and praising is only a form of prayer to the One we love. Our prayer is indeed a gift used by the Holy Spirit himself, whom Christ sent afterward for our comfort and instruction in all things… without prayer, we find ourselves defenseless, unable to prevent the inevitable evils of this world from hurdling full force into our lives. We cling to prayer so that our world stays held together by our Lord Jesus –It is through constant prayer that we invite our God to be a part of our lives, and it is in prayer that we shut out the enemy with all of his attacks in order to prevent those demons from accomplishing their purposes–their purposes being nothing but our disbelief and doubt, that we would not know the wonderful reality of the power of Jesus, that we would not call upon Him, that we would be orphans in a lost and dying world with no access to our Heavenly Father…

But, Christ’s gift of prayer has opened up to us all that we need to fight the good fight of Faith. It is not a burden when we truly understand its power. We are not weighed down with obligation to it, if it is that we have cast off the weights of sin by repentance. Enter into prayer by the shed blood that washes us clean and see prayer begin to pour out of you like a rushing river. If we hold to forgiveness in every circumstance, then we are always forgiven… so that we may ask whatsoever we will and it will be done of our Father. ♥

Let Us… ♥

  • Let Us have a heart that has been prepared when entering into our prayer closet; “It is better to have a sincere heart lain before Him with no words, then to come with words when there is no heart.” -John Bunyan img_3866

Remember that it is God who does the drawing. We are sensitive to His call. We constantly listen for His promptings. We wait for the Lord and He gives us our prayers… Let Us be sure that our focus is for Him, and not a thing. Let Us position ourselves under the Blood of the Lamb at the Mercy Seat. Let Us condition our heart with humility and expectation; the humble condition of our heart is imperative.

It will be through His merciful Spirit that we are heard.

We are God’s Temple; we are His house. And, it is that He has said, “My house will be called a house of prayer.” He has asked us through Isaiah, “where is the house that you built me; where is the place of my rest?” Let Us abide in Christ so that He is welcome to dwell with us. He will surely hear us then, and will be well pleased.

We have an example of His Temple [which we are]… –of the Outer Court, where prayer begins…though we must journey into the Inner Court, and ultimately, the Holy of Holies. As the deer pants for the water, Let Us search and come boldly with mouths hungry for His Word. Let Us prepare the soul, with all of its hungers and desires, to be subject to our spirit, for our spirit must commune with God’s. —Now we see the Inner Holy Place –Now our body & soul is surrendered & our spirit alone may enter… The Holy of Holies opens up and deep calls unto deep –communion begins. This is where strength is given. This is where we are renewed. – We must get there! We must wholly enter in! Let Us…— ♥ ~.~

Believe for your Breakthrough ♥

Position yourself to Receive

In positioning ourselves to receive a breakthrough from the Lord, we must not be double-minded. Do not listen to the voice of the enemy that seeks to plant lies that will distract and detour one from receiving. Be ever-mindful of your thoughts and words, let them only come from the throne room of Heaven and pass through your spirit. God watches over His Word to perform it; know His Word and speak it! Out of your heart, your mouth will speak. Therefore be filled with His Word that it may pour out of you…

A silent prayer is subject to distracting thoughts, so we must speak OUT LOUD that it would activate Faith; that it would rule over doubt. Be consistent, be focused, be patient, be single-minded, determined to walk through to the other side with God.

Every breakthrough is a direct result of seeds planted given in Faith and the belief that there is a return for our faithfulness in Christ. Be sure to give a significant seed, the kind that cost you… seeds of love, trust, hope, kindness, gentleness, compassion, understanding, and charity…

Once we truly have done this we can rest in the assurance that God’s Word will not return void. Study it, meditate on it until it becomes alive in you. Do not neglect it. Now this produces genuine and powerful Faith —Now, our foundation is solidly set on Jesus— He is the author and finisher of our Faith and we will not be denied. ~.~

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Fight the good Fight of Faith… Labor to enter into His rest…

My greatest experiences of Faith have manifested in moments where no other solution was within reach; when desperate and unforeseen circumstances force one into situations that can no longer be controlled or manipulated; life is happening to you, and you have become a mere spectator unable to participate. This is when you will hear a still small voice rise up from your center and speak in order to show you the way. With it, comes a compulsion. Pay attention. This is when you learn to trust that compelling call because there is no better choice.

….later in life, as I would find myself feeling lost, not necessarily at a point of desperation yet, but with a sense of darkness and silence as to which way to turn that was sure to send me there… It was in these moments that I would recall those past times in my walk of Faith; those experiences of blind steps taken on Faith by a prompting. My reflection and meditation caused me to recall that still small voice that had rescued me. I now listen quite intently for that same leading of a still small voice within; I wait for that same compulsion…

At those times, with each one, the certainty that my Faith in an unfailing God would not disappoint me strengthened. The Lord began to show the evidence of His real and present provision with every step of Faith I took; for it has always been a Faith set upon a Rock, based on the foundation of Jesus Christ my Lord that He himself taught when I was in desperate need. So that now, I rest.

I no longer stay in those places of darkness and silence. By the Grace of God and with His Spirit, I have fought through to the other side. I continue to fight the good fight. It is a life long journey. And, with every twist and turn of desperation that tries to attach itself, my Faith only grows stronger. Until now… now my labor has caused me to enter into the Throne Room of Grace, where I Worship & Rest in Him. ♥

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His Love ♥

How do I? How can I? I need to know…

All of my life, I’ve searched for You, Lord. My heart’s desire has been to know You. My constant striving to please You, always hoping that my ‘doing’ might cause You to take notice. I supposed that You might move on my behalf; that you would possibly extend your hand of favor… –and favor has come, blessings and favor and constant provision. But, now I see that it was not because of my efforts, but because of Your Love. It has never come because of my selfish endeavors. But, when circumstance and struggle brought me to complete surrender, my selfishness ended and Your Mercy overflowed…
 It was not for Your sake that spiritual laws have been set. I’ve finally learned that it was for my own sake that there was a longing placed inside of me to know You — and my eyes were set upon a book — a book that is summed up in one word — Love. You are Love. It is only inside of complete and unconditional Love that we find our answers. And, the benefit of our search is not for You, but for each of us. In and through Love, we find pure Praise and true Worship flows. It is only out of the purest Praise and Worship that we begin to see Truth.

Forever mankind has grappled with the question, “Why?” Now I see that all of life’s answers can be found, not in the question “why?” but, in the search for “how?” 
How can I see You? 
How can I find You? 
How do I seek You?
How can I know You?

In this question, eternity begins to open up to us, and it becomes more real than anything in this temporary life… —-and our answers are hidden inside of our Worship. They come through our complete surrender. This is where our carnal mind quiets in the background and our natural state begins to transform; our perceptions begin to change and our spirit rises up to overtake and outperform the flesh—- Only then does the door into Your realm crack open. And, it pours out such a flood so magnificent we cannot help but to be overtaken by Your Love, Peace, Joy, Laughter, Praise, Healing, Wisdom, and Glory!!! …and it is intoxicating … and I am addicted. I am overwhelmed and undone by Your electrifying touch, Your pure Presence. I am run through by Your profound Peace, and now I see You. I have found You in my Worship. I have learned how to seek and know You, and I hear Your voice in the song.

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